i'm working hard these days.
trying hard to be happy
trying hard to find inspiration
trying hard to be a good friend
trying hard to care about myself as much as i care about kyle
trying hard to stay active
trying hard to work
trying hard not to cry
trying hard to take each moment for what it is, no more, no less
trying hard to dream


i love repetition

mwhaahahaskdjfnmrg. it's marianne, and i hijacked this shit.
i love wena wooo. i'm watching one of those midget wedding stories on tlc.
i should be cooking dinner for lena when i get home, and she's at chatsworth.
penis.
wine.


k bye.



HAHA THIS MIDGET LADY IS SO ANGRY.



OH YEAH HI LENA, I'M I CAN STEAL YOUR LIVEJOURNAL.

I miss being addicted to LJ. Better start that shit up again.

I like hanging out in the wooden umbrella in manor park. It's not windy in there.
My hair smells like Kyle.

I'm at wwwworkk. Didn't have to be in till 12:00 today so went gymming and shopping!!

KYLE COME HOME


Sleepy, sore, hungry, but life is gggggood.

How come my horoscope never relates to anything that ever happens to me anymore?!

Aw. Happy V-day, yo.

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This weekend was a complete WASTE
in every way possible.

Haven't laughed this hard in a long time
I better stop now before I start crying
Go off to sleep in the sunshine
I don't want to see the day when it's dying

She's a sight to see, she's good to me
I'm already somebody's baby
She's a pretty thing and she knows everything
But I'm already somebody's baby

You don't deserve to be lonely
But those drugs you got won't make you feel better
Pretty soon you'll find it's the only
Little part of your life you're keeping together

I'm nice to you, I could make it through
That you're already somebody's baby
I could make you smile if you stayed a while
But how long will you stay with me baby

Because your candle burns too bright
Well, I almost forgot it was twilight
Even if I think that you are right
Well, I'm tired of being down, I got no fight

You're wonderful, and it's beautiful
But I'm already somebody's baby
And if I went with you I'd disappoint you too
Well, I'm already somebody's baby

Everything in my life right now is terrible. Except maybe that I got a 94 on my drawing & painting midterm. That's good. And Mr. Murray lent me another book of his, so I have ten more photocopied paintings that I can look to for inspiration. I really do love Mr. Murray. A 94 is good. I miss my mom.

two names you go by
1. Lena
2. Neeeeena, Wena

two parts of your heritage
1. Chinese
2. German

two things that scare you
1. Crickets
2. Jack getting hurt

two of your everyday essentials
1. Vitamin E
2. Concerta? nah, I need Cetaphil

two things you are wearing right now
1. Sweatshirt
2. That's it.

two of your favorite bands or musical artists
1. Rilo Kiley
2. Portastatic

two things you want in a relationship
1. Laughter
2. Trust

two truths
1. I don't want to be a designer anymore.
2. I still cry when I listen to Brick.

two physical things that appeal to you
1. Smile
2. Eyes

two of your favorite hobbies
1. Drawing
2. Sewing

two things you want really badly
1. To backpack around Europe with Ware for a long period of time
2. A new ipod

two places you want to go on vacation
1. Thailand
2. Austrailia

two things you want to do before you die
1. Meet my birth father
2. Become and stay really close with Juliet, Jack and Francis forever

two things you are thinking about now
1. Mango chapstick
2. The party Mare and I are having soon

two stores you shop at
1. Tiana Pierce's closet
2. H&M

two people you haven't talked to in a while
1. Will
2. Martha

two favorite web sites
1. http://www.rdomm.com/portfolio.html
2. http://www.735am.com/

two favorite sports
1. Soccer
2. Gymnastics

two things you did last night
1. Cuddled
2. Cried

two shows you like to watch
1. The Ali G Show
2. Buffy The Vampire Slayer

two places you like to go to
1. Seattle
2. Marianne's house

two favorite subjects in school
1. Drawing & Painting
2. English

two favorite alcoholic drinks
1. painkillers
2. red and white wine

two favorite places to eat
1. Bangkok
2. Bangkok

two people that live in your house
1. Jack
2. Juliet

two things you like about yourself
1. hair
2. third nipple

two things you ate today
1. Eggs
2. Chinese food

two people you last talked to
1. Kyle
2. Katya

two things you're doing tomorrow
1. Eating at some point
2. Seeing Kyle

two things you did today
1. Went to the Aquarium
2. Took pictures